bye bye!

i am leaving this for smth better.

you spend your nights alone,
he never comes home,
and everytime you call him,
all you get's a busy tone.

i heard you found out,
he's doing to you,
what you did to me,
ain't that the way it goes.



words of a wisemen. and karma does come back to bite you in the ass. trust me, when it does happen to you, you're gonna regret it.



okay, on to the agenda that's been bugging me lately.

i have no idea why, but recently, i have been thinking alot about you. even after talking about how i chose to only be friends.

WHY!? why is this so. am i slowly getting attracted to you, again? am i suffering a relapse of whatever occured back in the BV days. aaaah, i miss you so much and i'm like really wishing that you're done with all your projects and all that. and your holidays are just around the bend riiiight?

and like, you're gonna be a bum and just laze around at home riiiight? haha. this means, hang out hang out.

anyways, i joined the kakis yesterday to celebrate the birthdays of 3 of my gal pals from the changkat days. so that means like, 8-9 years of friendship? now im kinda regretting not getting to know them a little better cause i would have been more open and shit like that around them. but you know i love you guys right? all 3 of you 18year olds who wouldnt stop teasing me about JUST TURNING 17.

thanks ah people!! you made me feel young.

anyways, yesterday was lorryloads of fun. yes fun! we had cancerous barbecued food thanks to the never ending smearing of margerine on to the coal. haha. i'm just kidding people. the food was great, company was awesome. atmosphere was just.. ecstatic. i felt, really really happy for the first time in a long time.

it's amazing how friends can really make your day, even if it wasnt YOUR special day, you'd feel absolutely jubilant in their presence. so go on and build bridges, not burn them. i learnt my lesson, the hard way.

hence the opening statement after the poem. oh well, im not regretting the decision i made cause you don't look back right? just move on and stop reminiscing about the past. honestly, despite what all the friends have told me. i never really did regret making that decision. and i'm not sayin it as an 'in-your-face' kinda statement. im just pointing out the facts because well, this is my blog right?

i'm kinda hoping all this time taking a break from the blogging world has maybe totally removed the number of people actually reading this. i wanna make this bloggy private. and people might be thinking 'set a pass u dumbass' and to answer that question, simple, im too damned lazy =)

anyways, back to the birthday issue. haha. celebrated mas' sya's and illy's birthdays (in chronological order). the highlight of the day must have been the post-party. haha. playing childish games around the table. that to me, was the icing on the cake. another one would be the prize-opening ceremony. just seeing the smiles of delight totally gave me the sense of satisfaction.

i know how you guys (or girls rather) have been sending all these SMSes, thanking all those who turned up for the event and all that. but seriously, i thank you guys. that was one of the most awesome days i ever had. i'm hoping that's a signal that '07 would be a kickass year.

musically and entertainment-wise, i know '07 wouldnt disappoint. but it's the factors that affect me on a more personal level, things that i wanna change for the better to help me make this year a more meaningful and satisfactory.

once again, i'll try my best to build bridges. instead of burning them.

i really enjoyed yesterday.

love you guys, =)

okay so uh, in a coupla minute's time it would be the day most couples rejoice.

the day that most couples go through extravagant means just to prove to one another of the depth of their love and such.

but why must it only be on this fated 14th of feb that people want to start renouncing their love to their respective partners and such. uhh, okay, that's about all the anti-vday feelings that i have. in short, im not really a big fan of vday. it's just too, abnormal for me.

just like anniversaries and birthdays and all the other stuff are. come on fellow homo sapiens, it's just an ordinary day when flowers are extremely overcharged and people have an increased expectation of being on the receiving end of some loving when to sun sets. look, luq just is not a bg fan of vday. period.

anyways, i have been looking through youtube and found many many brilliant artists who couldnt cut a recording contract.

why the hell do recording companies sign deals with brainless gits like britney and all other musically uninclined retards. i just think that it's unjust that people who's got real talent. real RAW talent be stuck to performing in front of a webcam and uploading it to youtube hoping to get the ratings and all that. open your damned eyes man.

see who's got real talent and who doesn't.

that's when i came to realize that, if the music industry was filled with john mayers and alicia keys, den the world would hear the same sort of music. i am not making sense.

the words that i am typing are just flowing out of me. no thoughts, no nothing. ah well, i know 2007 would be a better year for me.

already i have made some changes in my life that i hope would make luq a better man walking this earth.

i love you